Introductory Blog 

My life changed forever the morning I found my 17-year-old son in his room. Death by suicide; something I still struggle to comprehend. In that moment my life split into Before and After. The Before was now a memory and the After was terrifying. The fear was overwhelming. I couldn't comprehend how I was going to live without him. It was hard to accept but the world carried on.
I woke each morning wondering if today was the day I broke. I wandered for hours with my new puppy. As I walked with people and their dogs, conversation often led to Beckett. I couldn't live in a world that I couldn't say his name, so I did. I was surprised how many others were also grieving and how grateful they were to talk to about it.
Regardless of the circumstances, I found common themes of guilt, shame, fear and loneliness, but also a longing for happiness. We were grieving though; there's no place for joy, right? Over time I had built an inner circle that understood me. One that gave me respite from societal beliefs that grief has a time limit. We would tell our favorite stories. We'd cry BUT we would also laugh. We don't have the luxury of creating new memories, so these moments let us be with our loved ones.
I began to envision a space to build a supportive community. A space to learn how to live in a world that doesn't always understand grief. To learn how to ask others for help so they better understand and support us. Yes, there are websites, agencies, counselors and support groups giving invaluable guidance. They are crucial and I am not suggesting they aren't needed. They provide a strong base of understanding setting the groundwork. I envision an uplifting community of "aftercare". Where we don't just survive our loss, but learn grief and joy can co-exist. Our loved ones are still here, we just need to learn how to bring them with us. I envision a calendar to discover what can build the connection. Art/music/horticulture/animal therapy, meditation, spirituality, yoga, journaling, guest speakers, the possibilities are endless.
If you are here because you lost a loved one, I'm sorry. If you are here because you care about someone who is grieving, thank you.
I hope that you'll join me as I build Beck's Haven. I am not the expert. I only have a desire to share my experience and build a supportive uplifting community along the way.

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2024

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